Hi. My name is Ash. Welcome to my blog. LOL. I had been throwing my blog at the corner alone for quite some time. And I'm now blogging on my bed with my pillow in the middle of the.. Morning? It's like 5am now and I'm having a serious insomnia here. Gosh. It's really terrible. Since I got nothing to do,I shall blog! With my iPod. Hehe.
Suddenly I'm in quite a sad mood. No idea why maybe is due to my pms and stuff. Listening to sad songs. So please don't expect this entry to be happy hehe haha or mwahaha.
Well,I had pass my most important test which determine my future, SPM. I had enjoy myself throughout my nong nong holidays where I can go out almost everyday with my ladies,sitting around and gossiping or just plain slacking our afternoons at Stabucks. And the most terrifying day arrived, result taking day. Cry myself to sleep the whole day after i get my results,getting real emo,dunno what my future will be. What I know was just hiding under my blanket and cry and cry. Blaming myself like over thousand times for getting such bad results,making my parents and sisters disappointed. It's really too far from what I expect it will be. But after a whole day of hiding,finally I realize I could not change the facts and slowly accepted it,although I still feel sorry and ashamed to face my family. And to the most recent, I'm had enroll to the college I wanted this May. Inti International College Subang Jaya for Diploma in Mass Comm,a course which I think is my favorite since I love writing (I know my grammar sucks and I don't have good English like what my haters say,but hey! You can't deny my creativity) and I love photography. So yeah. Mass Comm will be! At first I really can't believe my mum actually let me to go college! cause she had been really really discouraging me to go college even before I start spm. I really thank her and my dad so much to actually listen to my thoughts and let me choose my paths myself.
Everything happens so fast. It's d May now and in about half month time,I'm going to start my new journey! I'm going to meet new friends. I had to adapt myself in a whole new environment. Gonna learn new stuffs (yay! No science subjects!). Have to be a real independent girl cause I'm staying at the hostel. Learn to wash my own clothes,buy myself foods and going over to the supermarket to get groceries. And very soon,I have to take care of my own finance since I get limited pocket money per month! must save save save! I will turn into an auntie soon =_= Gosh.
What makes me heartache the most is, I had to leave my beloved hometown. I'm leaving my small raintown Taiping,to a whole new BIG and busy city,Kuala Lumpur. I have to leave my parents. My mum is always not feeling well and I'm the only one in my house since my dad works at other state and both my sis is not around. And now,if I left,who will take care of her? Who will look after her? What if she suddenly feel sick and I'm not around and she is lonely? I really dunno. Although my sis ask her to go Singapore and stay after I'm gone,but she can't stay there forever. This is the main problem that had been bugging me.
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| There is my beloved parents and sisters :) |
And yes. My pet dog. LeLe. Even I'm at Singapore for like 3 weeks, I already miss her like mega lots. Now I have to leave her for I dunno when.
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| My baby :) |
Can I bare it? Can I be independent? Can I? My sis told me that this is something that everyone will overcome one day. I'm sure my first two weeks at KL will be suffering. I blame myself for being such a weak girl :'( I can only hope that I will meet really nice and friendly housemates there. At least I will have someone to console me.
And of course. How can I bare to be separated from all my wonderful ladies? Most of them are staying at Taiping to continue their study in Form 6. While my honey Xuan going to Inti Nilai (which she had already gone today) and SF coming to Inti Subang Jaya this July. Being far away from all these familiar faces,makes me feel so unsecured. I hate to be lonely. I can't stand to be alone. I need all my friends to be around. Without them,I can barely live. I wanna make them laugh like usual,see their happy faces and my favorite part? Was to tell each other secrets. Yes. I believe 8 of us share almost all our secrets. And it remain just with 8 of us.
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| 8 happy face of us. |
I was wondering,can my new college mates stand my character? Will they accept me for being me? Will they cheat or hurt me? Who can I believe? Who can I share all my happy and sad moments with? Who will help me when im being bullied? Will my ladies be around? I hope so. Please Skype every week? Is it possible? How about twice every month? I hope we will still be like last time. No secrets or boundaries among us. Just 8 of us. My triplets Xuan and Tyzz Ying. Im most close with both of them. I can tell them everything and anything. Three of us get really crazy and mad sometimes. HAHA.
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| My pretty twins <3 |
My beautiful and understanding Cyndi Mami. Without her,our life would be pretty dull and boring! Although she nags alot,but I feel something wrong if she never nag :P I love her laughter which bring us really lots of happiness. I will miss her mushroom soup very much! and her twins, our super efficient planner Shee Ping. She is extremely pretty and gorgeous. And whenever she plan something,the next day we will be already there according to her plan. SUPAHH efficient. Please anyone hired her as secretary.
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| Twins aye? ^^ |
My princess Sook Fang. Which always disappear and be around out of the sudden. I know her since Primary ONE and now,both of us going to pursue our studies in the same COLLEGE. 12 years of friendships and what can i say more? ^^ My pretty and kind teacher Yik Mun. She is the most patient lady and always smile smile.And ms rabbit Yen Nee. We all call her PR cause she is always busy xP 7 of them are the most lovely girls I had ever met. I really hope there will be friendship forever among us :)
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| A simple collage of us :) |
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| During our Form 4 trip to Genting! |
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| Cute Panda Mun :3 |
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| I find it real damn hard to find a solo pic of SF =_= There is she. I BET EVERYONE KNOW WHICH IS HER x) | |
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The center one is Yen Nee :3
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Actually,there are more friends that I miss. First sure will be my Cursed boyfies. Some of them might look like gangsta or something,but really don't judge a book by it's cover. They are the nicest guys I had ever meet and take care of me like super much. They can crack jokes from nowhere and makes me laugh till I tears. Just wanna complain here,when I'm out with you all, can don't talk about DOTA ar? Haha. Pretty pretty please? :)
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| Ahhh~ Its like one year back :P |
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| Memang gangsta |
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| Favorite picture of the year! xD |
And some boyfies of my which is not Cursed. This cute bald head budak NYY. He is the one I really like to pick a fight with. Fight with him is my daily dose of happiness :P He can be real annoying sometimes,but he is a real good friend. Thanks dude if you saw this!
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Jeffrey which is my best listener. He always listen and give me advice. I can share almost everything with him. He is really a super awesome friend and I owe him alots. Thanks to you too.
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| Ahh 2 years ago picture. Mega unglam I know. LOL. But thats the only picture I have :X |
My very cute panda friend Ting Shan. She is consider my new friend but yet,I feel as if I know her for ages. Both of us share similarities and another awesome advice giver :) She is real cute and She teach me really lots of thing.Oh how can I forget Mr Eat-M&m's-like-eat-rice HAHA. Thanks cause always treating me yummy food and drive me here and there. Although we can't be 4 musketeers anymore,but you are always my best friend and best to bully! Mwaha.
How come this entry had turn into a thank you note? Hmms. But yes. Without all those person I stated above, there won't be a YS. They make me,guide me,help me,teach me and scold me to be a better person. I always say, without them,who am I? They are the lights in my life. I hope all of them will remain in my life forever. I never wanna lose any of them. Too precious for me. YOU ALL BETTER DON'T LEAVE ME HOR I TELL YOU :P
"Lucky I'm in love with my best friends"
