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It had been ONE WHOLE FREAKING YEAR I never blog a single thing here! I'm so lazy. Like really lazy until I'm speechless of myself. I had lost my passion in almost everything I use to love. Please give me the power not to be lazy anymore...

Let me update you guys with my current status now :)

1. Hello I'm "still" Ashley and going to be 19 in few days time.
2. I'm currently staying in Subang Jaya (don't stalk me please :P) and pursuing my studies in Inti College Subang Jaya doing Diploma in Mass Communication.
3. I love my current life because I had gone through ups and downs with my classmates when it comes to handling events and EXAMs. I'm really grateful that I choose to study Mass Comm.
4. I'm also currently a KPOP mania. I read allkpop like my textbooks everyday without fail. I had went for two KPOP concerts ever since I'm here which is Korean Music Wave and FT Island Play!. Both of them are totally unforgettable experience for me cause it rocks!! I'm proud to be an ELF, ZE:A'Style, Primadonna, VIP, BlackJack, and many many many more. I hope my exams will include all this and I'm gonna ace in it XD
5. I still went back my hometown often as I can as I get homesick easily. I miss my mum and my LeLe so much, I get depressed sometimes and cry alone here cause they are everything to me. And when I'm back, yumcha session with my ladies is a must and you can find me at La Promise Cafe very frequently hahahaha.
6. Hmms let's see. Ahh yes, I gain so much weight I look like a bao now. LOL Why did I even say this gosh. Addicted to Korean food nowadays! Kimchi Soup, Fried Mandu, Jeon, Tobbokki and etc etc etc!
7. Currently missing my ex-housemate HL Milk cause I had move to another house. I feel kinda lonely out of the sudden cause I got no one to talk to hence I'm blogging again! PLEASE TALK TO ME PEOPLES!
8. I realize I'm so emotional nowadays and I tend to TWEET words I never meant. Sorry if I hurt you *sings*~ I promise to be more optimistic and change my attitude.
9. I had been addicted to manicure lately. I got a box of manicure related stuff with me now.
10. I'm currently single *cough*
11. I tweeting 24/7 except when I'm sleeping or when I do not have access to internet.
12. I just started my new sem and meet juniors today. We got a lot of new students for DMC. 50 of them! Gosh. Be nice to seniors or else.... HAHAHAHA joking.
13. I'm currently writing super random stuff I can't think of anymore so I shall stop here. Please pray that I will be more hardworking in updating my poor blog please.

Annyeong! :)

Thank you.

Hi. My name is Ash. Welcome to my blog. LOL. I had been throwing my blog at the corner alone for quite some time. And I'm now blogging on my bed with my pillow in the middle of the.. Morning? It's like 5am now and I'm having a serious insomnia here. Gosh. It's really terrible. Since I got nothing to do,I shall blog! With my iPod. Hehe.

Suddenly I'm in quite a sad mood. No idea why maybe is due to my pms and stuff. Listening to sad songs. So please don't expect this entry to be happy hehe haha or mwahaha.

Well,I had pass my most important test which determine my future, SPM. I had enjoy myself throughout my nong nong holidays where I can go out almost everyday with my ladies,sitting around and gossiping or just plain slacking our afternoons at Stabucks. And the most terrifying day arrived, result taking day. Cry myself to sleep the whole day after i get my results,getting real emo,dunno what my future will be. What I know was just hiding under my blanket and cry and cry. Blaming myself like over thousand times for getting such bad results,making my parents and sisters disappointed. It's really too far from what I expect it will be. But after a whole day of hiding,finally I realize I could not change the facts and slowly accepted it,although I still feel sorry and ashamed to face my family. And to the most recent, I'm had enroll to the college I wanted this May. Inti International College Subang Jaya for Diploma in Mass Comm,a course which I think is my favorite since I love writing (I know my grammar sucks and I don't have good English like what my haters say,but hey! You can't deny my creativity) and I love photography. So yeah. Mass Comm will be! At first I really can't believe my mum actually let me to go college! cause she had been really really discouraging me to go college even before I start spm. I really thank her and my dad so much to actually listen to my thoughts and let me choose my paths myself.

Everything happens so fast. It's d May now and in about half month time,I'm going to start my new journey! I'm going to meet new friends. I had to adapt myself in a whole new environment. Gonna learn new stuffs (yay! No science subjects!). Have to be a real independent girl cause I'm staying at the hostel. Learn to wash my own clothes,buy myself foods and going over to the supermarket to get groceries. And very soon,I have to take care of my own finance since I get limited pocket money per month! must save save save! I will turn into an auntie soon =_= Gosh.

What makes me heartache the most is, I had to leave my beloved hometown. I'm leaving my small raintown Taiping,to a whole new BIG and busy city,Kuala Lumpur. I have to leave my parents. My mum is always not feeling well and I'm the only one in my house since my dad works at other state and both my sis is not around. And now,if I left,who will take care of her? Who will look after her? What if she suddenly feel sick and I'm not around and she is lonely? I really dunno. Although my sis ask her to go Singapore and stay after I'm gone,but she can't stay there forever. This is the main problem that had been bugging me.

There is my beloved parents and sisters :)

 And yes. My pet dog. LeLe. Even I'm at Singapore for like 3 weeks, I already miss her like mega lots. Now I have to leave her for I dunno when.

My baby :)

 Can I bare it? Can I be independent? Can I? My sis told me that this is something that everyone will overcome one day. I'm sure my first two weeks at KL will be suffering. I blame myself for being such a weak girl :'(  I can only hope that I will meet really nice and friendly housemates there. At least I will have someone to console me.

And of course. How can I bare to be separated from all my wonderful ladies? Most of them are staying at Taiping to continue their study in Form 6. While my honey Xuan going to Inti Nilai (which she had already gone today) and SF coming to Inti Subang Jaya this July. Being far away from all these familiar faces,makes me feel so unsecured. I hate to be lonely. I can't stand to be alone. I need all my friends to be around. Without them,I can barely live. I wanna make them laugh like usual,see their happy faces and my favorite part? Was to tell each other secrets. Yes. I believe 8 of us share almost all our secrets. And it remain just with 8 of us.

8 happy face of us.

 I was wondering,can my new college mates stand my character? Will they accept me for being me? Will they cheat or hurt me? Who can I believe? Who can I share all my happy and sad moments with? Who will help me when im being bullied? Will my ladies be around? I hope so. Please Skype every week? Is it possible? How about twice every month? I hope we will still be like last time. No secrets or boundaries among us. Just 8 of us. My triplets Xuan and Tyzz Ying. Im most close with both of them. I can tell them everything and anything. Three of us get really crazy and mad sometimes. HAHA.

My pretty twins <3

My beautiful and understanding Cyndi Mami. Without her,our life would be pretty dull and boring! Although she nags alot,but I feel something wrong if she never nag :P I love her laughter which bring us really lots of happiness. I will miss her mushroom soup very much! and her twins, our super efficient planner Shee Ping. She is extremely pretty and gorgeous. And whenever she plan something,the next day we will be already there according to her plan. SUPAHH efficient. Please anyone hired her as secretary.

Twins aye? ^^

 My princess Sook Fang. Which always disappear and be around out of the sudden. I know her since Primary ONE and now,both of us going to pursue our studies in the same COLLEGE. 12 years of friendships and what can i say more? ^^ My pretty and kind teacher Yik Mun. She is the most patient lady and always smile smile.And ms rabbit Yen Nee. We all call her PR cause she is always busy xP 7 of them are the most lovely girls I had ever met. I really hope there will be friendship forever among us :)   

A simple collage of us :)

During our Form 4 trip to Genting!

Cute Panda Mun :3

I find it real damn hard to find a solo pic of SF =_= There is she. I BET EVERYONE KNOW WHICH IS HER x)

The center one is Yen Nee :3

Actually,there are more friends that I miss. First sure will be my Cursed boyfies. Some of them might look like gangsta or something,but really don't judge a book by it's cover. They are the nicest guys I had ever meet and take care of me like super much. They can crack jokes from nowhere and makes me laugh till I tears. Just wanna complain here,when I'm out with you all, can don't talk about DOTA ar? Haha. Pretty pretty please? :)

Ahhh~ Its like one year back :P

Memang gangsta

Favorite picture of the year! xD

 And some boyfies of my which is not Cursed. This cute bald head budak NYY. He is the one I really like to pick a fight with. Fight with him is my daily dose of happiness :P He can be real annoying sometimes,but he is a real good friend. Thanks dude if you saw this!

HEHEHE.

Jeffrey which is my best listener. He always listen and give me advice. I can share almost everything with him. He is really a super awesome friend and I owe him alots. Thanks to you too.

Ahh 2 years ago picture. Mega unglam I know. LOL. But thats the only picture I have :X

 My very cute panda friend Ting Shan. She is consider my new friend but yet,I feel as if I know her for ages. Both of us share similarities and another awesome advice giver :) She is real cute and She teach me really lots of thing.Oh how can I forget Mr Eat-M&m's-like-eat-rice HAHA. Thanks cause always treating me yummy food and drive me here and there. Although we can't be 4 musketeers anymore,but you are always my best friend and best to bully! Mwaha.

How come this entry had turn into a thank you note? Hmms. But yes. Without all those person I stated above, there won't be a YS. They make me,guide me,help me,teach me and scold me to be a better person. I always say, without them,who am I? They are the lights in my life. I hope all of them will remain in my life forever. I never wanna lose any of them. Too precious for me. YOU ALL BETTER DON'T LEAVE ME HOR I TELL YOU :P

"Lucky I'm in love with my best friends"

Happy Tu-Tu Year ! Wabbit Wabbit :B

 

Happy Rabbit Year to all my fellow readers and friends! Hope you peeps are showers with lots and lots of big fat juicy angpaos that will makes you SCREAMM! Bahaha. Have a great year ahead :D Share more times with you beloved families and loves one. Make them HAPPY. This is the season of giving! Cover them with all your love <3 SO,dont forget to share me your bak kwas,and pineapple tarts,and muruku (YES! I love this although its Indian biscuits. But they are such a darling! 1 Malaysia ),and Shandy,and Beer,and lots of fattening home-cooked dishes! You may invite me to your house at any time! Just gimme a call! :P 

By the way,Im in a dilemma whether to upload this picture of me imitating rabbit. Its kinda ugly as my face had grow ALOT chubbier,like fml alot! FML! I blame myself for eating so much :( My cousin even ask me whether my face swollen izit? FML TTM. But,to attract more readers (business strategy lol) I decide to sacrifice my reputations and there you have it! My wabbit face xD 

I know Im ugly but whatever. As if I give a damn. Blehhhh! xP

New Name. New Me.

Im feeling so excited and happy once I deactivated my old profile and started a new one,with a NEW NAME! I bet everyone thought Im crazy of something but I never feel so light before. Everything are HISTORY now and Im a brand new me :) My name was Alice before but nah,that's just not my character and stuff,its way to girlish for me. Im sorry to Jenn,my sister who is actually the one who name me Alice. But I had her agreement for this new name too. She know I face some problems and understand why I wanted to change my name. I grow up being more on the boyish side I think. I know I got long hair and I wear skirts but my character is different. I love cars and automobile. I loves gadgets and I will said it directly on your face if I hate you .__. So I think my new name suits me better.

So,Ashley will be. Ashley is my new name now. Ashley Ooi Yean San. Its boyish yet girlish at the same time. Thats why I choose this name :D But I love Yean San the best cause its given by my parents. The San makes me feel like SUN and Im always bubbly and happy as the SUN. I hope so. Teheehee.

Im really so hyper for the whole night. People accepted my friend requests and started calling me Ashley. At first I really cant adapt to the whole new situation cause I got so few updates on my news feed and people calling me name that Im so unfamiliar. But slowly when I lie down on my bed and think properly,its actually better. At least now I can really just add my FRIENDS in my Facebook and there wont be and junk or rubbish in my friend list. Im totally turn over a new leaf now. New name. New me. New character. New Facebook. I hope everything will change to better. Seriously. 

Old friends of mine if I forget to add you in my new Facebook account do sent me a request and I will certainly and please to approve.

Im tired of stuff and I guess its time to change everything. Are you happy to force your friends to the edge now? Bahh. Sick of it. Totally sick of it. I had enough patience of you. This is the best I can do. Just stay away from me! 

Hi. Im Ashley Yean San. You can call me Ash for short. Nice to meet you :)

Happier Me :)

I was on the bus one day, a long journey to go. I sit beside a stranger. Who had plug in her earpiece and blasting her music towards me. I wonder what's her story? What is she thinking? Are she surround by worries? Or can wait to reach her destination to meet someone she loves? She dress in a plain beige blouse,a pair of jeans,a checker bag, and a pair of pumps. Her music was really loud. I can even hear her songs. I'm really curious about humans. Cause everyone had different attitudes and characters.I think Its fun to explore human nature. How they react when problems comes up. How they try to being happy. How they feel when they are heart broken. 

Sometimes I'm curious about myself too. Why some of my friends are fond of me but some are not? Maybe it's really about wavelength and frequency of each people. Gosh I miss Physics now. How can I be good towards you but not her? Why have enemies? Although I try hard to please everyone,but it just seems impossible. So one day,I decide not to please anyone anymore. The other me just tell me stop being a puppet of others. So I give it a try. And the results comes out? Two different answer. Some seems to receive it while some don't. 

I'm glad to see those who still choose to stay with me. They are the greatest present for me after my family. They accept me  for being me. They never discriminate me for being honest and true. Although I still had a long journey ahead, but my life is always cheer by people who loves me. They care about me. Hear me when I'm in my difficult times. Lend me their shoulders when Im crying. Understands my problems and try to advice me. They are a part of me. 

To people who loves me out there, I'm blogging here to tell you guys how much I loves you. Sometimes one like on my status,one comment on my pictures means alot to me. At least I know you guys are always there with me. I'm not alone. I had overcome difficult times and because of you people I'm strong and happy. I wanna be the always happy-go-lucky girl in your hearts. Although it's just 17 (18 soon I know) years on this planet Earth,so much of you showers me with lots and lots of advice and loves. I appreciate everything and everyone. I knew there are kind peoples in the world. Peace yo :D

And to some of you who can't accept me,it's ok! Cause like I said everyone had different attitude and characters aye? Hehe. Just let them be. And I'm sure you will lead a happier life! Remains only the happiness,kick all those haters away!! Chill :)

Graduated :)

School reopen like weeks ago. And I finally realize, i wanna be back at the school! Which was bad cause I'm graduated from my high school. Ok I admit I hate school when I'm still tied to it cause of the exams and have to wake up supahh early in the morning. Why can't they just start school at 9 or 10? LOL . And yeah some really boring class but we can just sleep through it as the teacher starts to speak a single unknown science or add maths terms. But whats best about school is : FRIENDS! How I miss some of my classmate where we will sit together during free periods and talk and do homeworks together,trying to figure out the correct answer for our additional mathematics homework. I had annoying classmates too which are super annoying and noisy not like me *cough* jkjkjk. I miss running to the next class and try to talk to my friends about what time they having recess later cause sometimes different classes had different recess time. I miss sneaking out of class when the teacher did not notice so I can go to the library to read the newspaper. 

Oh and the FOOD! I can't say my canteen food was awesome cause it's cold and oily and unhealthy and everything bad. But surely I miss their 'cucur udang' very much! It cost RM1 for 8 pieces but me and my friend always take more than that! Huahahaha. Secret reveal. Aiya once in a blue moon nevermind want. At least we got paid right? Canteen food was so much cheaper. RM1 for a plate of Nasi Lemak and you could put as much sambal as you like! RM0.50 for a packet of Jambu and the Asam Powder is FOC too :P where can you get this price in town?! Best of all we can sit down on the long table and bench while tell each other about what happen at our class earlier and which teacher just get angry on who. And thanks to the Mami among us, we can had steaming hot mushroom soup! It's really warm especially during rainy days. I would like to take this opportunity to thanks Cyndi Mami for the great soup. If you ever taste it, you won't even bother to drink Pizza Hut's soup anymore! Its makes from real mushrooms and potatoes not from the can want hor! 

Last but not least is some great teacher I had. My super kind English teacher, Puan Ramlah who is always patience and soft hearted. She was also our English Drama teacher and she really teach me alot. Thanks to her I write better essays and the last day of school she told me 'Yean San,I believe you can write really good essays and stories so continue to work hard and good luck for your SPM!' while hugging me. I nearly drop my tears seriously. Thank you for believing me teacher ! :) Not to forget my super cool class teacher Mr Baderol or what me and my tablemate call him Uncle Bad. I loves him cause he never change the placing of me and my tablemate for dunno what reason. Haha. We are the only 3 tables in the whole class that never been change. What I hate is all the works he gave me to do cause I'm the class secretary TT He also teaches us History, the forever boring subject but he spice it up abit by asking all of us to do presentation regularly. He seldom scolds but when he gets angry,it's scary! I often sleep in his class especially when he is discussing some exercise he gave us. Not only me but the WHOLE class. LOL

Next will be my unpatience Add Maths teacher Ms Low. She gets angry really fast and will be annoyed if we did not know how to solve certain problems. Add maths is my poorest subject among all cause I think my logic brain does not function very well,ugh.   I still remember I only get 17 marks in my 1st exam during form 4! I only start to pass during Form 5 ( don't laugh at me please ) due to my tuition and also thanks to this teacher. She gives really many homework and fires up whenever peoples don't hand it up. Scary shit. I think I really improves alot but she never seems to praise me. Hmms. Maybe she is not that fond of me.

My Chemistry teacher Ms Ng who is like the most super duper very patience teacher in the whole school. She can even stand it although some really rude classmates of mine answer her in a harsh tone or rude way. Even me and my friend can't stand it but she never scold just shout in the super polite way to grab our attention. Gosh. Really salute her. I sleep really a lot in her class and she will come knocking on my table and wake me up and force me to answer weird Chemistry questions :'( she really seldom gives us homework and never ever scolded us for not finishing her homework but I know deep in Her heart she must be madly disappointed. Sorry teacher ! 

Phew must I really state out every teacher here? Ok ok one last teacher and I'm done. My cute doll Biology teacher Puan Nor Kamaliah. I'm mentioning her cause whenever she starts to speak, her words will automatically hypnosis us and we will fall to a deep deep slumber. Then she will shout in her timid doll voice 'Kamu ingat saya menyanyi ke?!' HAHAHA. That's why my Biology marks keep on dropping. 

The end of my teachers story. Applause please :3 hahaha. And what I miss the most is activities held in our school. Sports Day and Jogathon during the very beginning of the years which is the times I lose some fats. No I cant run can't jump can't even throw cause I'm no no athlete. But i had been the squad leader of my sport house marching team for 3 years *beam* and I miss torturing my juniors :P it's fun to mix around newbies in the school and bully them ( not that kind of punching and kicking bullies ok ). They always listen to you and never fight back except a few who was really annoying. But I'm proud to say all my Treacher sports house member are the coolest and cutest ttm! Keep the spirit burning! :) Oh oh and the coolest event in our school will be the Canteen Day. Every class will come up with different food and sell it at the most extreme expensive price LOL. But it's cool cause friends from other school get to come and visit us and that's the time we sell and earn as much money as we can. Arguments will be heard everywhere due to the different opinion of everyone and it's totally normal. It's really a memorable event as we learn to do our own business and way to handle a stall :)

My iPod is running out of juice here cause it's 4.46am here and I'm still blogging cause I can't sleep. Thanks to everyone that had been a part of my school life no matter you bring me good or bad memories. Lots of loves <3

Happy New Year 2011

This post is mostly about my ranting. So if you are someone who is emotional and over-sensitive,please do not continue reading this. I had stop blogging since ages I know and I'm sorry about that. Its easier for me to blog now but less picture will be stamp here. Sorry again. Ok back to my ranting. I'm here to tell you reader what kind of person I really dislike. So if you in one of this particular group below, I hate you! Lol. Joking. Some of you still can change to a better self I believe. No. I'm not trying to be prejudice or what. It's very personal here. It's just me. I didn't say about others. I think as a blogger, it's important to be honest and speak the truth. I'm not anyone with a mask. What i like,I will agree. But if I hate you,there is no point to pretend right?  

So the very first group will be those lalas on the street. Yes I know you guys and girls was just trying to be 'on the trend'. Tell you what, I'm use to be a lala here but look, I had finally realize it's bad to be a lala. Very bad I mean. So who am I to hate lala? As a senior here *cough* I'm just being kind to advise my dear juniors, stop your lala shit cause you look ugly with the pouted lips and lowering your glasses. Those who likes your pictures must be lalas too or just trying to flirt you or your kind friend who feel sorry for you. Don't you girls realize its actually ugly? No. Fugly. Why cant you all just smile? I believe you all looks x100 prettier with your smile! And scolding and spreading bad words all over Facebook aint cool. You will just look rude. Ok I know you are angry but a 'wtf' or 'wth' is enough to show your anger. Do you really need a whole sentence of 'knn mcb sohai kns cb' ? It's really ugly and sucks to see a pretty girl or handsome boy cursing all over Facebook. It will just drop your own reputation and image. I sound like a moral teacher here fml. Change. If you have the above characteristic, change to a better self. Trust me, you will feel happier and got more friends! 

Second, phew! It's going to be sensitive here. But I don't give a damn anymore. It's my blog and I blog. Everyone had the right to express yourself even you. Just to see whether you had this courage to lose tons of friends or not. I'm afraid of losing friends too. But,I can't keep on pretending like this. It's really annoying. Im really really get all burst up with people who loves to boast. From LV to Gucci to Hermes to Coach to whatever branded stuff, you just need to answer this question ; do you buy it with your own money? If you answer YES loud and clear, you are not in boasting category. Cause you work hard for it and it's reasonable to pamper yourself. If you answer NO, please, stop boasting about the bags you have,the car you drive or the clothes you wearing. It's plain useless and you will look like a spoilt kid. Who wanna know how much money you own or what branded bags you have? Keep it to yourself. Be humble! Cause you DO not get it by yourself! It's your parents or siblings money! You may say I own many branded stuff so I sure boast too. Yes,awhile when I lose control of my brain. Hope it's not too late to apologize here to my friend whom I boast with before. But some of you are total jerk. Boast like tomorrow will be the end of the world. Pfft. When people told you about that,change! You always had the chance to change! But if you decide to take those advice like a joke, sorry but you just lose lots of friends. Or maybe you just gain alot of 'love-to-boast' friends too. Congratulation then. Let's see how long you gonna survive in the future if you keep acting like this. Friends are all around but how much you know that they are true to us? Who will be there when you need them? Don't be self centered cause everyone had the chance to be the hero / heroin. When you made mistakes, apologize. Everyone is soft hearted and will forgive even the biggest mistakes made. Cause we are all humans. which human in the world did not make a mistakes before? Spill our milk when we were just babies. Break a glass when adolescent. Tell a lies when we are in primary school. Get home late when we are teenagers. Everyone did mistakes. No one is ever PREFECT. Its just whether we decide to ask for forgiveness or not. Owning stuff dont makes you happy. Owning a bunch of friends is happiness. 

It's been awhile since the last time I wrote a full ranting post. It's bad to start my first post of the year with hatred and ranting I know. I'm just being the old me loves to nag so much like an aunty. Lol. Hopes everyone will change into a better person in this new year. And I hope I can :

1. Becomes a better friend.
2. Watch out the way I talk to my friends cause I know they hate that.
3. Be a better daughter to my parents and a better sister to my sisters.
4. Can see everyone positively and never judge a person by it's look.
5. Study hard in my future studies no matter it's college or Form 6.
6. Never had regrets.
7. Be more optimistic and always brings laughter to all my family and friends.
8. Don't cry so easily.
9. Apologize for my mistakes and ask for forgiveness.
10. Write better blogs and hardworking enough to update my blogs.
11. Live my life to the fullest and be happy everyday! 

So it's my new year resolution here! I have done two post in one! Huaha. Cheer friends as we strive for a better year and better self! :)