New Name. New Me.

Im feeling so excited and happy once I deactivated my old profile and started a new one,with a NEW NAME! I bet everyone thought Im crazy of something but I never feel so light before. Everything are HISTORY now and Im a brand new me :) My name was Alice before but nah,that's just not my character and stuff,its way to girlish for me. Im sorry to Jenn,my sister who is actually the one who name me Alice. But I had her agreement for this new name too. She know I face some problems and understand why I wanted to change my name. I grow up being more on the boyish side I think. I know I got long hair and I wear skirts but my character is different. I love cars and automobile. I loves gadgets and I will said it directly on your face if I hate you .__. So I think my new name suits me better.

So,Ashley will be. Ashley is my new name now. Ashley Ooi Yean San. Its boyish yet girlish at the same time. Thats why I choose this name :D But I love Yean San the best cause its given by my parents. The San makes me feel like SUN and Im always bubbly and happy as the SUN. I hope so. Teheehee.

Im really so hyper for the whole night. People accepted my friend requests and started calling me Ashley. At first I really cant adapt to the whole new situation cause I got so few updates on my news feed and people calling me name that Im so unfamiliar. But slowly when I lie down on my bed and think properly,its actually better. At least now I can really just add my FRIENDS in my Facebook and there wont be and junk or rubbish in my friend list. Im totally turn over a new leaf now. New name. New me. New character. New Facebook. I hope everything will change to better. Seriously. 

Old friends of mine if I forget to add you in my new Facebook account do sent me a request and I will certainly and please to approve.

Im tired of stuff and I guess its time to change everything. Are you happy to force your friends to the edge now? Bahh. Sick of it. Totally sick of it. I had enough patience of you. This is the best I can do. Just stay away from me! 

Hi. Im Ashley Yean San. You can call me Ash for short. Nice to meet you :)

Happier Me :)

I was on the bus one day, a long journey to go. I sit beside a stranger. Who had plug in her earpiece and blasting her music towards me. I wonder what's her story? What is she thinking? Are she surround by worries? Or can wait to reach her destination to meet someone she loves? She dress in a plain beige blouse,a pair of jeans,a checker bag, and a pair of pumps. Her music was really loud. I can even hear her songs. I'm really curious about humans. Cause everyone had different attitudes and characters.I think Its fun to explore human nature. How they react when problems comes up. How they try to being happy. How they feel when they are heart broken. 

Sometimes I'm curious about myself too. Why some of my friends are fond of me but some are not? Maybe it's really about wavelength and frequency of each people. Gosh I miss Physics now. How can I be good towards you but not her? Why have enemies? Although I try hard to please everyone,but it just seems impossible. So one day,I decide not to please anyone anymore. The other me just tell me stop being a puppet of others. So I give it a try. And the results comes out? Two different answer. Some seems to receive it while some don't. 

I'm glad to see those who still choose to stay with me. They are the greatest present for me after my family. They accept me  for being me. They never discriminate me for being honest and true. Although I still had a long journey ahead, but my life is always cheer by people who loves me. They care about me. Hear me when I'm in my difficult times. Lend me their shoulders when Im crying. Understands my problems and try to advice me. They are a part of me. 

To people who loves me out there, I'm blogging here to tell you guys how much I loves you. Sometimes one like on my status,one comment on my pictures means alot to me. At least I know you guys are always there with me. I'm not alone. I had overcome difficult times and because of you people I'm strong and happy. I wanna be the always happy-go-lucky girl in your hearts. Although it's just 17 (18 soon I know) years on this planet Earth,so much of you showers me with lots and lots of advice and loves. I appreciate everything and everyone. I knew there are kind peoples in the world. Peace yo :D

And to some of you who can't accept me,it's ok! Cause like I said everyone had different attitude and characters aye? Hehe. Just let them be. And I'm sure you will lead a happier life! Remains only the happiness,kick all those haters away!! Chill :)

Graduated :)

School reopen like weeks ago. And I finally realize, i wanna be back at the school! Which was bad cause I'm graduated from my high school. Ok I admit I hate school when I'm still tied to it cause of the exams and have to wake up supahh early in the morning. Why can't they just start school at 9 or 10? LOL . And yeah some really boring class but we can just sleep through it as the teacher starts to speak a single unknown science or add maths terms. But whats best about school is : FRIENDS! How I miss some of my classmate where we will sit together during free periods and talk and do homeworks together,trying to figure out the correct answer for our additional mathematics homework. I had annoying classmates too which are super annoying and noisy not like me *cough* jkjkjk. I miss running to the next class and try to talk to my friends about what time they having recess later cause sometimes different classes had different recess time. I miss sneaking out of class when the teacher did not notice so I can go to the library to read the newspaper. 

Oh and the FOOD! I can't say my canteen food was awesome cause it's cold and oily and unhealthy and everything bad. But surely I miss their 'cucur udang' very much! It cost RM1 for 8 pieces but me and my friend always take more than that! Huahahaha. Secret reveal. Aiya once in a blue moon nevermind want. At least we got paid right? Canteen food was so much cheaper. RM1 for a plate of Nasi Lemak and you could put as much sambal as you like! RM0.50 for a packet of Jambu and the Asam Powder is FOC too :P where can you get this price in town?! Best of all we can sit down on the long table and bench while tell each other about what happen at our class earlier and which teacher just get angry on who. And thanks to the Mami among us, we can had steaming hot mushroom soup! It's really warm especially during rainy days. I would like to take this opportunity to thanks Cyndi Mami for the great soup. If you ever taste it, you won't even bother to drink Pizza Hut's soup anymore! Its makes from real mushrooms and potatoes not from the can want hor! 

Last but not least is some great teacher I had. My super kind English teacher, Puan Ramlah who is always patience and soft hearted. She was also our English Drama teacher and she really teach me alot. Thanks to her I write better essays and the last day of school she told me 'Yean San,I believe you can write really good essays and stories so continue to work hard and good luck for your SPM!' while hugging me. I nearly drop my tears seriously. Thank you for believing me teacher ! :) Not to forget my super cool class teacher Mr Baderol or what me and my tablemate call him Uncle Bad. I loves him cause he never change the placing of me and my tablemate for dunno what reason. Haha. We are the only 3 tables in the whole class that never been change. What I hate is all the works he gave me to do cause I'm the class secretary TT He also teaches us History, the forever boring subject but he spice it up abit by asking all of us to do presentation regularly. He seldom scolds but when he gets angry,it's scary! I often sleep in his class especially when he is discussing some exercise he gave us. Not only me but the WHOLE class. LOL

Next will be my unpatience Add Maths teacher Ms Low. She gets angry really fast and will be annoyed if we did not know how to solve certain problems. Add maths is my poorest subject among all cause I think my logic brain does not function very well,ugh.   I still remember I only get 17 marks in my 1st exam during form 4! I only start to pass during Form 5 ( don't laugh at me please ) due to my tuition and also thanks to this teacher. She gives really many homework and fires up whenever peoples don't hand it up. Scary shit. I think I really improves alot but she never seems to praise me. Hmms. Maybe she is not that fond of me.

My Chemistry teacher Ms Ng who is like the most super duper very patience teacher in the whole school. She can even stand it although some really rude classmates of mine answer her in a harsh tone or rude way. Even me and my friend can't stand it but she never scold just shout in the super polite way to grab our attention. Gosh. Really salute her. I sleep really a lot in her class and she will come knocking on my table and wake me up and force me to answer weird Chemistry questions :'( she really seldom gives us homework and never ever scolded us for not finishing her homework but I know deep in Her heart she must be madly disappointed. Sorry teacher ! 

Phew must I really state out every teacher here? Ok ok one last teacher and I'm done. My cute doll Biology teacher Puan Nor Kamaliah. I'm mentioning her cause whenever she starts to speak, her words will automatically hypnosis us and we will fall to a deep deep slumber. Then she will shout in her timid doll voice 'Kamu ingat saya menyanyi ke?!' HAHAHA. That's why my Biology marks keep on dropping. 

The end of my teachers story. Applause please :3 hahaha. And what I miss the most is activities held in our school. Sports Day and Jogathon during the very beginning of the years which is the times I lose some fats. No I cant run can't jump can't even throw cause I'm no no athlete. But i had been the squad leader of my sport house marching team for 3 years *beam* and I miss torturing my juniors :P it's fun to mix around newbies in the school and bully them ( not that kind of punching and kicking bullies ok ). They always listen to you and never fight back except a few who was really annoying. But I'm proud to say all my Treacher sports house member are the coolest and cutest ttm! Keep the spirit burning! :) Oh oh and the coolest event in our school will be the Canteen Day. Every class will come up with different food and sell it at the most extreme expensive price LOL. But it's cool cause friends from other school get to come and visit us and that's the time we sell and earn as much money as we can. Arguments will be heard everywhere due to the different opinion of everyone and it's totally normal. It's really a memorable event as we learn to do our own business and way to handle a stall :)

My iPod is running out of juice here cause it's 4.46am here and I'm still blogging cause I can't sleep. Thanks to everyone that had been a part of my school life no matter you bring me good or bad memories. Lots of loves <3

Happy New Year 2011

This post is mostly about my ranting. So if you are someone who is emotional and over-sensitive,please do not continue reading this. I had stop blogging since ages I know and I'm sorry about that. Its easier for me to blog now but less picture will be stamp here. Sorry again. Ok back to my ranting. I'm here to tell you reader what kind of person I really dislike. So if you in one of this particular group below, I hate you! Lol. Joking. Some of you still can change to a better self I believe. No. I'm not trying to be prejudice or what. It's very personal here. It's just me. I didn't say about others. I think as a blogger, it's important to be honest and speak the truth. I'm not anyone with a mask. What i like,I will agree. But if I hate you,there is no point to pretend right?  

So the very first group will be those lalas on the street. Yes I know you guys and girls was just trying to be 'on the trend'. Tell you what, I'm use to be a lala here but look, I had finally realize it's bad to be a lala. Very bad I mean. So who am I to hate lala? As a senior here *cough* I'm just being kind to advise my dear juniors, stop your lala shit cause you look ugly with the pouted lips and lowering your glasses. Those who likes your pictures must be lalas too or just trying to flirt you or your kind friend who feel sorry for you. Don't you girls realize its actually ugly? No. Fugly. Why cant you all just smile? I believe you all looks x100 prettier with your smile! And scolding and spreading bad words all over Facebook aint cool. You will just look rude. Ok I know you are angry but a 'wtf' or 'wth' is enough to show your anger. Do you really need a whole sentence of 'knn mcb sohai kns cb' ? It's really ugly and sucks to see a pretty girl or handsome boy cursing all over Facebook. It will just drop your own reputation and image. I sound like a moral teacher here fml. Change. If you have the above characteristic, change to a better self. Trust me, you will feel happier and got more friends! 

Second, phew! It's going to be sensitive here. But I don't give a damn anymore. It's my blog and I blog. Everyone had the right to express yourself even you. Just to see whether you had this courage to lose tons of friends or not. I'm afraid of losing friends too. But,I can't keep on pretending like this. It's really annoying. Im really really get all burst up with people who loves to boast. From LV to Gucci to Hermes to Coach to whatever branded stuff, you just need to answer this question ; do you buy it with your own money? If you answer YES loud and clear, you are not in boasting category. Cause you work hard for it and it's reasonable to pamper yourself. If you answer NO, please, stop boasting about the bags you have,the car you drive or the clothes you wearing. It's plain useless and you will look like a spoilt kid. Who wanna know how much money you own or what branded bags you have? Keep it to yourself. Be humble! Cause you DO not get it by yourself! It's your parents or siblings money! You may say I own many branded stuff so I sure boast too. Yes,awhile when I lose control of my brain. Hope it's not too late to apologize here to my friend whom I boast with before. But some of you are total jerk. Boast like tomorrow will be the end of the world. Pfft. When people told you about that,change! You always had the chance to change! But if you decide to take those advice like a joke, sorry but you just lose lots of friends. Or maybe you just gain alot of 'love-to-boast' friends too. Congratulation then. Let's see how long you gonna survive in the future if you keep acting like this. Friends are all around but how much you know that they are true to us? Who will be there when you need them? Don't be self centered cause everyone had the chance to be the hero / heroin. When you made mistakes, apologize. Everyone is soft hearted and will forgive even the biggest mistakes made. Cause we are all humans. which human in the world did not make a mistakes before? Spill our milk when we were just babies. Break a glass when adolescent. Tell a lies when we are in primary school. Get home late when we are teenagers. Everyone did mistakes. No one is ever PREFECT. Its just whether we decide to ask for forgiveness or not. Owning stuff dont makes you happy. Owning a bunch of friends is happiness. 

It's been awhile since the last time I wrote a full ranting post. It's bad to start my first post of the year with hatred and ranting I know. I'm just being the old me loves to nag so much like an aunty. Lol. Hopes everyone will change into a better person in this new year. And I hope I can :

1. Becomes a better friend.
2. Watch out the way I talk to my friends cause I know they hate that.
3. Be a better daughter to my parents and a better sister to my sisters.
4. Can see everyone positively and never judge a person by it's look.
5. Study hard in my future studies no matter it's college or Form 6.
6. Never had regrets.
7. Be more optimistic and always brings laughter to all my family and friends.
8. Don't cry so easily.
9. Apologize for my mistakes and ask for forgiveness.
10. Write better blogs and hardworking enough to update my blogs.
11. Live my life to the fullest and be happy everyday! 

So it's my new year resolution here! I have done two post in one! Huaha. Cheer friends as we strive for a better year and better self! :)